I am anxious.
Questions abound that remain unanswered. Words halted by mouths too afraid to hear answers.
I push them down.
Breathe in and out. Create meditative spaces that enhance patience, and develop understanding.
I unravel momentarily.
As things remain in stasis, I am visited by the ghosts of relationships past. The liars, the cheaters, the thieves. The patterns of hurt and worry burst forth, smothering me…restricting my airways, and causing the ever-present feeling of drowning.
I am stronger than anxiety.
Panic attacks cannot subdue me. Tears do not choke me. I am bigger and badder than the melancholy of a suspended heart. Today I want to transcend fear. Transcend self-doubt. Transcend the emotional wounds. Transcend any and all things that hold me back.
I want to breathe easy knowing that things are simple and uncomplicated. That the paradigm has shifted, and I can quiet my raucous mind. Others may have failed you. But if you’ll allow me, I will show you what it is to truly have a partner in all things. Just you and I. Equals.
I cannot promise much. All I have is the potential for adventures, laughter, deep conversations, political discourse, a shared passion for music, physical compatibility, and all of the love and support a person could ever ask for.
Take a chance on me.